I have been travelling through outer space. How surreal is grief, how unnerving, how brutal. How curious.
People have been anchors. I have had so much support, encouragement and hugs. People have delivered boxes of food to our door, complete with excellent snacks and hummous. Gorgeous flowers of every kind filled our home for what felt like weeks. A friend brought soup. Two good friends brought me a wonderful magnolia tree to plant. Today on my desk was a CD for me to listen to, complete with artwork by a small child called H. Little card and prayers have featured in my life. Some people have sent text messages and emails and tweets. And I have even recieved old school greeting cards in the mail.
I have felt loved. What else can be asked for? Not anything, really.
My buddy M has a farm in her backyard. It is awesome. When I was there the other day she gave me lettuce - to plant in my vege patch. It is humbling to recieve so much kindness. It is also hard! I have wanted to resist, to push back. But I am learning to let people love me.
I'll have you know that I cried over that gifted lettuce. I will post some pictures of my newly made vege garden soon.
Here is the lettuce:
So nice to hear you're getting lots of love. It's hard to let people love you, but really, there's oodles to go around!
ReplyDeleteSoup, magnolia tree and lettuce. You are indeed blessed! :-)
ReplyDeleteGrieving is a full-time job. So glad you are giving others the gift of receiving love!
ReplyDeletei know exactly what you speak of....love/compassion, opening your heart to receive, letting go....i found that once i "let go" and allowed compassion for myself universal compassion grew within me ten-fold!
ReplyDeletethe more i let go the more freedom i felt, the more harmony i felt connected to the universe and like a faucet i cannot turn it off now!!
my heart felt prayers in your journey. may you find liberation from your sorrow...